Bashful, Doc, Grumpy, Sleepy! yea that's it, Sleepy

I'm tired today, so very very tired.
I don't know what time I went to sleep last night but I don't think it mattered. I've been having really vivid dreams recently and been waking up tired. It's kinda annoying, especially when you go to bed early expecting to wake up nice and refreshed.
I even went so far as to put in ear plugs last night because the neighbors were making a lot of noise. I woke up this morning to find them placed neatly on my desk... I must have gotten up in my sleep and put them there. Weird.

Last night my girl came round. We didn't do any baking but we did eat some pate, talk, and drank coke.
My girl even remembered to take her pate home with her :)
It was a nice evening, although we're both looking forward to a sleep in. Bring on Tomorrow! Miss C's last day and my last day of getting up early. I'll go to work at 9 on Friday. Turns out we'll most likely be out of the office by 2pm as well which is GREAT.

So here I am today, hump day, and I'm really tired. I don't have much work to do either.
To illustrate this fact, I have already made paper clip chains and stuck them to the wall in a festive manner.
I don't know how I'm going to last out the day.

I've just broken out the Banana Cake that I made, it's nice and moist, everyone is loving it.

The weather is miserable today, dreary, gray and raining.


I think I need another piece of banana cake...

Two left feet

Two left feet, foot in moth, call it what you will but lately I seem to be suffering from a chronic case of it.
I can't seem to say the right thing sometimes. I think it's this whole 'electronic communication' thing.
When I'm in person I'm fine but sometimes I say something that seems perfectly logical in my head but obviously comes out completely wrong.
I loves my girl, I'm looking forward to spending Christmas with her, hell, I'm looking forward to spending a good long time with her!

I just need her to know that I AM excited for her about the prospect of a new job, in Te Horo or not, and that I DO want to be with her.
It was just that she was talking about moving closer to Wellington one minute, and then the next was talking about the possibility of moving to Te Horo. It does take more than 30 seconds to adjust to that.
But adjust I have.
I now realize that it was a little small minded of me to think that she would limit herself to jobs that were ONLY in Wellington, and why would she? If you're looking for the perfect job, sometimes you have to look a little further than your own back yard.

She really does mean the world to me, in these short six months we have experienced and done so much together. She's become a very real part of ME, of who I am now.
I enjoy every minute I get to spend with her. The happy, the sad, all of it.

Hopefully she's going to come round tonight after work and we'll do some baking, I'm going to make some gingerbread and she's going to make some caramel balls. I made some of the balls last night and they came out pretty good :) They might have done with a tiny bit more crushed biscuits, but apart from that they were great.

6 more sleeps to go.
I'll be glad when Friday afternoon rolls round and I can be with my girl for more than just an evening :)

Miss C got a present for me from TradeMe and it was supposed to be delivered last week. Well it finally arrive and turns out it was frong Hong Kong, not New Zealand like it was supposed to be. To make matters worse, they sent her the wrong thing!
Now she's rather pissed off about that (understandably!)
I wants to have her in my arms like last night and let her know that I still love her and that come Friday, all the work stuff and the people that drive us a little nuts will be a thing of the past, at least for 2 weeks.
2 weeks of sun drenched (please oh please oh please) holiday, drinking margaritas on the deck, playing croquet, and sleeping in, preferably next to each other :)

Yes, definitely looking forward to all of the above :)

Mondays suck

I know it's only a week out from Christmas and I'm really happy about that, excited to share it with my girl this year, but this morning was a bit of a downer.

Miss C had found a job in the paper and was all excited about it and she told me her mum wanted her to go for it and I thought it sounded cool, an events planner for a catering school.
I was happy she'd found a job to get excited about.
Then after a little more discussion it turns out it would be based in Te Horo.
Now we've been talking about moving in together in the new year when my lease runs out and that thought has made us both REALLY happy.
But for that move to be away from Wellington again and up the coast is a BIG change, not just a move.
I won't lie, I've come to love living in Wellington, so close to everything and lots to see and do all the time.
I remember living out on the coast and commuting back and forth every day on the train, not exactly some of my fondest memories.
I wanted to be all supportive of her and happy for her but at the same time its really hard to be enthusiastic about that.
There are good things about living up the coast, closer to both out parents, cheaper flats etc.
There are bad things too, much longer commutes and expenses that go with that, so far away from town, friends etc.
I just think I have to get my head round the idea, it was all just a bit much for a Monday morning I think.

I know one thing, I love my girl, she loves me, and that's all that really matters to me.

Suck on my chocolate salty balls

They're packed full of vitamins and good for you, so suck on my BALLS!
Well a certain someone else decided to use song lyrics for her blog post today so I thought I would too, and who better to use than Chef from southpark. You know the recipe for his salty balls is actually part of the lyrics, and apparently they're kidna nice. Weird huh.

So what's happened this week?
Well I can't remember much so I'll stick to yesterday ;)

Wednesday I went out for a walk at lunchtime with my sweetness, we looked at 'things' and I ended up buying some mon-keys

So that was fun.

Yesterday, straight after work, I went and got my haircut, got to catch up with Ivor, he's a laugh, and the girls at George Janis are always good fun too.
Straight after THAT I walked down to Miss C's work to catch a lift with her out to the hutt for the last of my Christmas shopping. She went in and got her nails done and I walked the shops.

After THAT we went and got some Burger Fuel burgers and they were REALLY good. The kumura fries are to die for :D

After THAT we laughed and talked and kissed the rest of the night away. It was great.

Which brings us to today.
What have I done today?
I put up a few auctions for hard drives on trademe, I've chatted with my girl on and off all day, I've been given a box of fudge for being a helpful person, I've downloaded some mp3's and generally wasted the day away :)
It was my boss's last day for the year today so next week is going to be nice and relaxed, not that he's a slave driver or anything, far from it. It's just always nicer when you don't have that person looming about. You know people, you know.

So yea, I'm looking forward to seeing my girl again tonight, we're going to have a nice relaxed evening again tonight and see what the weekend brings. We've got a bbq to go to but we'll see how we feel :)

Miss C has to go see her mum get introduced to the new flock. I might go up to the farm while she's at that and drop off some presents etc. Will be nice.

So yea, that's it, very stinted but at least I made an effort.

Hope u all have a great weekend, c u next week.

Same bat time, same bat channel!

Grey skies are gonna clear up, put on a happy face

I love being able to put a smile on my girl's face :)
Some times it's as easy as giving her a kiss.

I got my new CC yesterday! And last night I gave Miss C the honors at the 'lets destroy the evil that is AMEX' celebration. I still have the little man off the card, the rest is confetti.

So Miss C came round yesterday afternoon, she had gotten into a bit of a funk, they day was just getting her down and I don't blame her. She's tired of working for people who just don't care.
So she came round and we went out for a drive in my car, I installed my new amp so we actually had some sounds (still needs some adjustment but hey it goes :)
We talked a bit while driving, helped clear her head a bit I think, got a few laughs out of her and by the time we returned home she was smiling.
When we got back in, I surprised her with a present, I'd even wrapped it!
She opened the box to find a brand new (second hand) laptop. It's not half bad even :)
After that there was, well, a bit of kissing, more talking, and by the time she left I actually had her smiling and happy again :)

Ooh, she saw the tree painting and was just as impressed with it as I am. I think it's going to go down a treat :)

So yea, that's about it for yesterday, ooh, well I DID have leftover Chinese for dinner, mmmmm sweet n sour pork with Chic fri lice, mmmmmmm
Yea, THAT'S about it.

:D

Monday Monday, da naaa da na naaa na

So good to me, da naaa, da na naaa na
Or something like that
Well it's Monday morning, the monday after a great weekend.
Here's the recap.
Friday night started off well, went down to The Tasting Room to meet up with my girl and V who were having drinks, free drinks I might add, helps when your friend has made out with the head bartender I guess ay ;)
I had a few beers with them and all was going fine until these plonkers came along. Now their shirts said 'something' electrical but I'm sure they were plumbers, cause as soon as the girls went to the bathroom they let their true colours shine. Bunch of assholes is all I can say. Crass assholes.
One of them kept trying to get me to tell him who in the bar I fancied but I just told him I was more than happy with my girl. "Oh the girls are gone now mate, don't be candid". That was just the begining.
After that came the questions about licking sweaty arses, yes I kid you not!
At that point I told them they were just crass and to shut up. One guy turns to the other and says "What's crass? fucking latin or something?"
Yea, real intelligent guys.
They kept at it so I told them to shut the fuck up, at this point I was physically shaking and was about to pop the fucker in the mouth. Luckily the girls came back and I told them I had to leave so V said her goodbyes to her bartender boy (well man, he's like 30 or something..) and we left the crass assholes to themselves.
I didn't feel like drinking anymore so I left and the girls continued along courtenay plc.

On Saturday I found out that the guy that was pissing me off had a thing for my girl. So it turns out that he was probably TRYING to piss me off. I would have dearly liked to smack that asshole in the face.
Grrr!

Last time I got into a proper fight it took 3 guys to drag me off the bastard I was punching, and I'm a LOT stronger now so I'm just glad I was nackers and hadn't had TOO much to drink.

Anyway, saturday my girl came around and we went out and played some pool.
It started off a bit crappy but after the first couple of games we really started having fun :)
We had 3 cokes each and were probably there for a good couple of hours. It was great, just what I needed.
And the great thing is, we're still really evenly matched so it's still lots of fun :)
After pool we went back to my place, talked a lot, as we usually do :) and then Miss C went off home.

I slept in Sunday morning, it was great.
After lunch Miss C and I went out and got my Huffer pants from Area 51 (my not so secret Christmas gift hehe) and then Gordon Harris for the art supplies.
Unfortunately the 'not so secret' Christmas gift was the other cool shirt I wanted from the Illicit store but they don't have my size in the wellington store or even online! suck! Nevermind, I'm sure there's something else my sweetness can find and if not I'll keep a look out ;) hehe

My girl was in a particularly happy mood on Sunday, and she was looking hot to boot, come to think of it, she was looking pretty hot on Saturday as well in her cool new retro top, very sexy. On Sunday she was wearing her misery shirt and it's looking good on her :D
We snuggled a bit, had a nice time talking again and then she headed off home to get some baking done.
I decided to give my gran's painting another go. It's got 3 sections of hill on it and I redid the top section and started on the tree that's in the middle.
The shadow of the tree didn't come out so great but the tree itself looks great :) I'm really pleased with it, Miss C is too :D

I did a bit more on my Gir picture too but that's still got a wee way to go, a bit more black outlining which usually involves a lot of 'touching up' afterwards. Getting there tho.

And that brings me to Monday.
I'm wearing my cool new black shorts today and it's beautiful and sunny outside. I'm torn between going to the gym and going out with my book and sitting in the sunshine at lunchtime. Might have to flip a coin ;)

Oh well, that'll do pig, that'll do.

TAFNR

Culmination Day

Yesterday was a day where everything started coming together.
Here's a quick run down:

We were going to throw out some old laptops at work yesterday but Jim and I ended up spending a good part of the day making 2 good laptops out of all the crap and the best news is one is for Jim and the other is for me :D
Nothing says yay like a free laptop, especially when it's not half bad.
Secondly, I ordered my girl's main Christmas present :D (which has arrived this morning :D )
I also ordered my cousins Christmas presents too, some of which have arrived today, others will be arriving next week.
I got my new glasses :D They're quite nice too, still getting used to them though, almost getting vertigo some times :S
My new CC application got approved and will be waiting at the Lambton Quay branch on monday for me to go get! yay! I can finally get rid of the EVIL card that is my AMEX. The new one is a mastercard with LOW interest so I can use it to make big purchases and pay off as I please :)
I got myself some really nice clothing while out at lunchtime with my sweetness, some really nice shirts, some cool black shorts and some cream pants, very smart (yea I know I shouldn't be buying myself anything this close to Christmas but I might give someone the pants or something to give to me, people HAVE been asking so it's only fair ;) )
After work yesterday my sweetness and I went out to Westfield and found her a really cool retro top and a nice skirt :) Good day for all!

After all that excitement we went back to my place and talked for a while, then both got to bed at a reasonable time. I think it's helped, I wasn't quite so tired this morning.

So I'm sitting here eating my savory scone, drinking my drinking yoghurt with happy thoughts in my head and a TGIF Friday has just begun.

Good times people, good times.

18 sleeps to go till the jolly fat man comes and drinks my beer?

At least that's what Polly tells me, she was singing that this morning. It's kinda her thing you know, like Goldmember from Austin Powers painting people's "u-ho's" gold.

It's definitely the run down for the year now, the home stretch. To illustrate that, I sat on my bed last night and started watching the Simpson's. I awoke 25min later to hear the end credits...
I then got a txt from my sweetness and I walked down to Courtenay Plc to meet her for some dinners :)
We had some really nice Chinese, the broccoli had this sauce on it that was really tasty. I could have eaten a whole head of broccoli with that sauce. It was goood.
We were going to head off to play some pool afterwards but we were both just too out of it to enjoy that so we headed back to my place and did nothing much for the rest of the evening. It was nice (apart from some leaping).

Yesterday I found a vodafone special for a $99 phone and managed to grab one for C's friend :) they were originally $299 so it was quite a good deal. I also found a really good cellphone number 0211 870 870! But my 'cart' expired while i was shopping for this stuff online and I couldn't get the number back. THEN, 5min after I bought them, the number appeared as available online! Arse. I was almost going to buy the simcard pack just so that I could give it to someone I know who was in need, when that actually occured.

I'm listening to ZM right now and they're getting people to ring up if they're on a short leash or if they have someone on a short leash. One girl rings up and says she has her partner on a short leash and then starts stating what the deal is. She found some naughty txt's on his phone so she broke it. Now she's broken 6 of his phones, she TIMES him when he goes to the dairy or anything like that, she lets him go out to his mates but she has to go too, to make sure there's nothing dodgy, she checks up on him at WORK, she's a psycho. Polly and Grant were just too polite to say anything, well Grant did say he was scared of her.
Man, there are some crazy people out there huh.
I'm glad I have my sweetness and she's crazy like me so that's all good ;)

Oh well, back to work for now, gotta make the moneys to live, oh, and to buy the Christmas presents....

Its the final countdown, do ne nuu nu do ne nuu nu nuuuuu....

It's ebbing closer and closer to Christmas people, I sure hop you've got all your Christmas shopping done, it's only a matter of a few short weeks to go!
I admit I haven't got ALL of my Christmas shopping done yet, I still have to order a couple of things, and grab a few stocking fillers but that's it. Nothing I can't handle, and nothing I have to wade thru the hoards of last minute shoppers for (thank God!)

If there's one thing I hate about the Christmas season it's the hoardes of zombie shoppers.
All those people, shuffling along like the undead, until they see what they're after (brains for zombies, festive ties with little led lights for the morons) and then they go into a frenzy, and God help you if you get in between them and their prize!

So Anyway, here's the weekend in review:

Friday night I went to the work Christmas party. It was ok, sucked a bit because I couldn't invite my sweetness along, not that she could have come anyway, having prior plans for the weekend anyhow.

Saturday was a rather productive day, pottered round the hose cleaning, sorting, very domestic type stuff really. I got a lot done and it was such a beautiful day to boot.

Sunday I went out on the boat with dad, helped him pump the bilge and a few other things, then later in the afternoon I went with him up to the farm.
I hung round there for 3 or 4 hours, said hello to my cats, talked to mum etc, the usual stuff you do when u go home.
The it was off to Fishermans table for a family dinner to celebrate my aunt's birthday.
It was quite a nice evening and was enjoyed by all.

Monday was, well, monday. I did get to see my sweetness first thing though, she needed to drop her car off for some work so I lent her mine. Then I got to see here straight after work 'cause she picked me up on the way to pick up her car :)
And THEN she came round later on as well and we spent most of the evening together which was nice, not having seen her for the entire weekend!

And that brings us up to today. It's pretty average so far, STILL waiting for my glasses, waiting to hear back about my CC application, waiting till I find just the right amp on trademe, waiting to see my girl next.....

Well, back to work now, things to do and not a lot of time left this year to get them done. I must make a list of things to do before Christmas and hurry up and start ticking them off....

7906 or at least i hink thats it

This post is directed at one person and one person only
You know who you are

I think that's the number, although i seem to reacall the 6 before the seven... nevermind, i stand by my call
Fate be kind

Yes drunken ramblings i know but if that's what they are, thats what they are. Doesn't make what im saying any less true.

Some people go through ife doubting themselves. They're the people who are constantly second guessing wether what they're feeling 'is love or not' and you want to know the truth? if they're second guessing it, then its not.
When you find true love, you know it. There can never be any question in your heart, and when you find true love, you know just how true that is.

Love encompases everything else. It overtakes even your will to live alone. Once you have experienced true love, you doubt as to wether you can go on without it.

Don't get me wrong, true love is not a crutch for support, oh no, it is an extension of your own body, it is a higher existence, knowing that you would wilingly give ANYTHING just to make someone else happy, there's no feeling quite like it.

i am with Cara, and I wouldn't want to be with anyone else.

She makes me feel complete like no one else can, or as i fear, never will.

I fear because some times, i can be really thoughtless. i really can,
That's what frightens me, that i could one day be so thoughtless (even though i love someone so completely) that I could lose them because if that.

I love Cara, i don't care who knows it.
She is my everything.

I hope more than life itself that she does truely know EXACTLY what she means to me.


Everything.